The Soul
The city of my psychology
Is an ambling, rambling place
Where there are many potholes
That—too often—I fall into.
I could give you a tour,
Show you the large library of all the lies I have told myself
Or the mystic pool that holds the shape
Of all my daydreams.
There is also a museum in me:
Half of it stores the beautifully kind words
And happy moments that I wander through
When the darkest night encompasses me.
The other half,
A place where sad thoughts and hurtful instances
Fly at me in the black like bats I cannot see…
Sometimes this inkiness leaks into the brightly-lit hallways of hope
Yet, weakly, I will push the dimness back into its cage.
But, I will confess to you,
There are days where I will sit in that awful room
Letting the nocturnal demons do their worst to me
Because I believe I deserve it.
Lastly, let me bring you to the center of the town.
Here, my friends, is my heart—
It looks lovely, doesn’t it?
The red velvet plush is ever so comforting.
Look again, though.
Walk around to the back of it
And marvel at the grisly, steel enclosure
Fortified by a thousand iron nails,
Guarded by a lock that was only recently discovered.
I’m not quite sure what’s underneath it—
All I know is that it bleeds.
The images in this are striking. I was completely transported; it was as though I was really walking the rooms and halls, through the darkness and back into the light. I hope that you will someday see what I do when I look in through the words - the ones you paint over your heart like windows - and glimpse what's really beneath that mural of brokenness: beauty.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Rachel.
ReplyDeleteYou don't know how much I needed to hear the sound of kindness.